
Ouch.
First I'd like to say thank you, then I'd like to apologize.
Wow. My readership is huge! Thank you! Although I do have to ask... is my content not conservative enough?
You'll notice there is a large gap in the map where all the red states are...
Anyways. I'd like to apologize for not talking to anyone. I've been getting rocked here.
Last term I did OK. It was my first term at college, I knew (somewhat) what to expect at Caltech, and freshmen at Caltech are on pass/fail for the first two quarters, and midway through 3rd term they choose an "option". So I found myself taking Math 1a, Chem 1a, and Phys 1a, as well as Ancient Art History and Early Modern European History. Chem 1a is a 6 unit course, where most classes are 9 units. I don't know what the numbers mean, but I would regularly spend 6-8 working on weekly homework sets for that class. Math and physics were probably similar workloads for me. The two history courses I took were taught by excellent professors and had content I really enjoyed, and I did very little work outside of the classroom, probably only a few hours a week.
Everything went well until about six or seven weeks into the term when I stop going to class. Upperclassmen have a way of saying "Pass/fail frosh!" that really encapsulates an entire paragraph into 3 words... it's more like saying, "Enjoy life while you can, because after the first year, sanity, dignity, and free time disappear completely. Unless you're a geology major. Don't go to class!!" So after hearing several stories of people who never went to class, failed the midterm, and still passed chem 1a, i stopped worrying about it. The week before finals rolls around, and I realize that it is algebraically impossible for me to pass Ch1a according to the grading guidelines on the course website. I started working very late, until five or six or later in the morning, and sleeping all day, until four or five when it was already getting to be dark outside. I didn't go to class (because I was sleeping) and I never saw daylight (because I was sleeping).
It was sort of depressing.
It turns out, I passed 4 classes! Yay! First term, math was "easy" because I was placed in a "special" section of math 1a for "special" students like myself who didn't have enough sequences and series experience according to the diagnostic math testing taken before coming here.
I passed Art History, although I didn't go to the last two three hour lectures. I missed a free dinner, too! Darn!
I passed Phys 1a mainly because it was classical mechanics which isn't that difficult, and my girlfriend Meaghan is a physics major and she helped me quite a bit with that.
So that leaves Ch1a and my European History class. I basically earned 'incomplete's in these classes. I did very well on my Ch1a final (compared to the work I had done before :-S) and they didn't fail me out of pity. Now, if I pass Ch1b this semester, I pass Ch1a last semester. And if I fail this term, I get the added bonus of failing last term, too! It's double or nothing, to the tune of $46,000 a year!
Because I was so busy studying for chemistry, I didn't finish my final paper for my humanities course until just a few weeks ago, a month or so after it was due. Luckily, the administration doesn't care about that sort of thing, and I was able to turn it in (after worrying about it all finals week and all Christmas break) and pass.
So we're back in school this term. On the last episode of Blogbert™, I showed you some pics of the newly renovated South Houses, the undergraduate housing system here at Caltech. Very nice. Much, much better than the FEMA trailers we lived in last term. I now have a single, with space for all of my stuff and a desk I can spread out my work on. I'm very organized, I get up early (for a college student) and I don't miss much class. I don't waste time browsing the internet, playing guitar, hanging out with friends, or fixing iPods. I work all the time.
True, I do other things, like eat and sleep, but I've seriously optimized my life for maximum time I can work.
The problem is, I'm still not doing well enough to pass. I'm struggling to keep my homework scores above 50% in my two math classes. In Math 1d, the sequences and series course for "special" students, my first homework set was exactly 50%, and my second will probably not be much better. In the regular math class, linear algebra, I have a 65% on the first three homeworks. In chem 1b, I scored 63/100 on my last set.
So I guess the bottom line is, even though things are not going well, they should be. It's not to say that I won't pass my classes this term, because I'm going to my TA's for help on homework and making it known that I'm having trouble. But what if something happens? What if I get sick, and get behind? I'll be toast. And the best part? I had to fill out an underload petition because I'm not taking enough credits. Instead of having to deal with getting papers signed by the deans, I added a PE class that meets two times a week for an hour.
In the beginning of last term, I was enjoying college. I rode my bike most weekends, I worked a lot but I was OK with it, Caltech was still new and exciting. It turned out that my strategy for attacking school last term didn't quite cut it.
I'd like to be able to do take a day out of my life and ride my bike to San Diego.
I'd like to take pictures for the school newspaper.
I'd like to play on the ultimate frisbee team.
I'd like to learn how to program in Ruby, then learn some new web technologies.
I'd like to have some free time to read a book.
I'd like to do, you know, college stuff!
These are things I can't do here at Caltech. So I'm going to try to figure out a way I can do these things. If I can't make it happen here, I'm going to transfer somewhere else.
That's enough of me bitching for the day. I've been watching the Colbert Report lately (hey, I need something to make me smile) and I would highly recommend it. This guy is a genius.
In all honesty, it really isn't that bad here. There are lots of fun things happening. But in all honesty, it really sucks, too.
Adiós...
/rskjr